Stressing vs. Listening

Somehow, I have trained myself to believe that it's easier to stress over my ministry responsibilities than to simply listen to God and obey him. Why and how have I done this to myself? What a blatant display of pride and sinfulness. Whether it's gearing up for another semester of small groups, navigating tricky leadership decisions, or preparing for an upcoming sermon...all I need to do is listen and obey. Why is that so hard? Am I scared of what I might hear? Or am I just consumed with the crazy idea that I am somehow in charge of keeping the planets in orbit?

I'm guessing I'm not the only one who does this, though, since there is encouragement in both the Old Testament and the New Testament to let God take care of it.